Summertime
Hey,
so it's getting really hot over here lately (thanks climate change) and I seriously can't cope. I live in the apartment directly under the roof and nothing is isolated whatsoever so it gets as hot as 40°C in my apartment. And I have terrible heat intolerance mostly because I barely sweat. I try everything to keep cool, like airing out the rooms in the early morning when it's still cold and at night, I keep my curtains closed, I hang damp cloths everywhere, I have my fan running...but nothing helps. I don't have any other place to stay so I suppose I'm stuck here almost dying from the heat (my cat also hates it). Oh well, hopefully my landlords (aka my shitty family) will put in some isolation soon. As they say it's not even that expensive they just don't wanna do it for some reason. Well, screw them, I might end up doing it myself during winter break.
Anyways, I've done a lot of thinking lately on what to do with my life and how to do it...I'm gonna do my senior year of high school again starting late August, and I'm in IB so I have 6 subjects. Despite being out of school for almost half a year I still managed to get most of my work done, I'm completely done with TOK and my EE. For CAS, I still need some hours and CAS project I think. For my other subjects I'm almost done as well, I do German A (done with everything), French B (still need to do the oral), Geography (syllabus changed so fml), Bio (done with everything), Math (technically done with everything but want to re-do my IA), Theater (still have to do research presentation and solo piece). So basically I'm going back to school for another year to get my CAS and class hours and finish a few assignments, which I could finish during summer already and then just hand in/present. Sounds like I'm kinda wasting a year of my life, doesn't it? Well, somehow, yes. I could say now that I'll get to enjoy all the boarding school stuff I missed due to being away but my friends graduated so it doesn't really matter because I won't get to do all the fun stuff with them. And yeah making new friends blah blah, I just want to get my diploma and then go to university (even tho I'm sure I'll meet a bunch of nice people but sorry I don't really have the nerve to form deep friendships at this point in life). Another thing I need to consider is my unstable health. What if I get too sick for school again? I've been very anxious about this for the past month, so I decided to take up online A-level courses for Biology, Physics and Chemistry. I didn't enroll yet because as usual money is tight, but I got the books and started taking notes and geez I really underestimated the workload. It's not like I think I can't do it, it's just that I have no clue how I'll manage that with all the boarding school life. Because even tho I'm technically done with most classes I still gotta go there, plus Saturday school, plus CAS and other extracurricular stuff. My headmaster said I'm not expected to fully participate in this but ofc that doesn't mean I get to skip every extracurricular thing. Oh yeah and house cleaning, house meetings and other events. I still have hope that I'll get to ditch at least Bio and German and maybe Theatre once I 'm done with the assignments because I'd just waste my time by being in these classes. Also I'm not sure if I should tell our director of studies that I'm doing A levels because a) that might free me from Saturday school but b) if I ever get a bad grade they'll blame it on me taking A levels, not committing to the IB and they might kick me out so yeah idk.
Also, I've decided to take up music lessons but that's not 100% decided yet. And I've started doing yoga every day in the hopes of getting myself back in shape a little bit and hopefully regain some flexibility. Might use that for my CAS project if I can't come up with something else.
Regarding health, my body hates the heat. I have some decreased feeling in my right leg (well the entire right side of my body) and now it spread to my left leg really fast and it's annoying and I have little hope that it'll ever go back to normal. Oh well.
Until next time,
The Walrus
so it's getting really hot over here lately (thanks climate change) and I seriously can't cope. I live in the apartment directly under the roof and nothing is isolated whatsoever so it gets as hot as 40°C in my apartment. And I have terrible heat intolerance mostly because I barely sweat. I try everything to keep cool, like airing out the rooms in the early morning when it's still cold and at night, I keep my curtains closed, I hang damp cloths everywhere, I have my fan running...but nothing helps. I don't have any other place to stay so I suppose I'm stuck here almost dying from the heat (my cat also hates it). Oh well, hopefully my landlords (aka my shitty family) will put in some isolation soon. As they say it's not even that expensive they just don't wanna do it for some reason. Well, screw them, I might end up doing it myself during winter break.
Anyways, I've done a lot of thinking lately on what to do with my life and how to do it...I'm gonna do my senior year of high school again starting late August, and I'm in IB so I have 6 subjects. Despite being out of school for almost half a year I still managed to get most of my work done, I'm completely done with TOK and my EE. For CAS, I still need some hours and CAS project I think. For my other subjects I'm almost done as well, I do German A (done with everything), French B (still need to do the oral), Geography (syllabus changed so fml), Bio (done with everything), Math (technically done with everything but want to re-do my IA), Theater (still have to do research presentation and solo piece). So basically I'm going back to school for another year to get my CAS and class hours and finish a few assignments, which I could finish during summer already and then just hand in/present. Sounds like I'm kinda wasting a year of my life, doesn't it? Well, somehow, yes. I could say now that I'll get to enjoy all the boarding school stuff I missed due to being away but my friends graduated so it doesn't really matter because I won't get to do all the fun stuff with them. And yeah making new friends blah blah, I just want to get my diploma and then go to university (even tho I'm sure I'll meet a bunch of nice people but sorry I don't really have the nerve to form deep friendships at this point in life). Another thing I need to consider is my unstable health. What if I get too sick for school again? I've been very anxious about this for the past month, so I decided to take up online A-level courses for Biology, Physics and Chemistry. I didn't enroll yet because as usual money is tight, but I got the books and started taking notes and geez I really underestimated the workload. It's not like I think I can't do it, it's just that I have no clue how I'll manage that with all the boarding school life. Because even tho I'm technically done with most classes I still gotta go there, plus Saturday school, plus CAS and other extracurricular stuff. My headmaster said I'm not expected to fully participate in this but ofc that doesn't mean I get to skip every extracurricular thing. Oh yeah and house cleaning, house meetings and other events. I still have hope that I'll get to ditch at least Bio and German and maybe Theatre once I 'm done with the assignments because I'd just waste my time by being in these classes. Also I'm not sure if I should tell our director of studies that I'm doing A levels because a) that might free me from Saturday school but b) if I ever get a bad grade they'll blame it on me taking A levels, not committing to the IB and they might kick me out so yeah idk.
Also, I've decided to take up music lessons but that's not 100% decided yet. And I've started doing yoga every day in the hopes of getting myself back in shape a little bit and hopefully regain some flexibility. Might use that for my CAS project if I can't come up with something else.
Regarding health, my body hates the heat. I have some decreased feeling in my right leg (well the entire right side of my body) and now it spread to my left leg really fast and it's annoying and I have little hope that it'll ever go back to normal. Oh well.
Until next time,
The Walrus
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